You taught me to delight in life.
You taught me to embrace destiny,
take chances,
to dream big,
to give selflessly,
to love unconditionally.
With the dawn tide, soft waves enfold onto the sandy coastal strand,
you,
bare-chested & barefoot,
walk down the concrete path to the ocean.
As I stand behind braving the icy cold,
you immersed yourself,
calling me in,
I nodded.
Dipping your head backwards into the sea,
soaking your already thinning hair,
you laughter fills the bay.
As you raised back up,
the water,
trickling through your brows,
over your hazel and honey eyes,
as it trails down the sides of your face to your chin -
forming crystal beads at the tip,
little droplets fall daringly into the ocean.
In that moment,
the tiniest of fish surround your body.
Some nibble on your toes
whilst some take guard.
I walk to where the water kissed the shoreline.
Wetting my toes as they sink with the surf
Slowly meeting you.
We spoke as we floated.
Our ears submerged beneath the surface,
listening to the grains of sand dance on the ocean's ballroom floor.
Listening to the humming of the depths,
listening to what our hearts felt .
In that moment,
we never spoke of death.
or
of what life would be like
without each other.
//
The morning you passed
my life shattered.
The pain I felt then still lingers today.
I still wake between sleeps thinking of you...
mostly your eyes,
and how they glistened so bright.
For you,
I still make it at least once down to the ocean
for a 5 am dip.
And when I see those little fish,
I think of you,
as if you are there with me.
As you are always
forever in my heart,
My Papa.